Tuesday, November 10, 2009

cue the popcorn.

do you ever just have one of those days?

things are happening all around you. conversations are being carried on that are beyond anything you could have ever believed. comments are overheard. time elapses. people are interacting with you in a surreal sort of way. things are not what they seemed to be just the day before. tears well up behind your eyes at all the wrong times. everyone is on your side and yet you are alone.

nothing is good enough but you're not allowed to give up. people come and go faster than they are supposed to and then you are left to pick up the pieces. opportunities arise and you take them up and then you have to sit back and watch them unravelling all around you. and you have to do it with a smile on your face. you never knew it was possible to be so happy and so sad all at the same time. fleeting moments give you a glimpse of hope and then you start to wonder if it was all in your mind.

and then suddenly you find yourself singing beyonce's part to "crazy in love" and as you look out at the dozens of pairs of eyes and feel the cold metal of the microphone in your hands, you realize that maybe you have done all of this to yourself and you can't blame anyone else for your stupidity.

days like's like you're living in a movie. and through all the twists and turns, nothing turns out the way you thought it would. and there's even a soundtrack to go with it.


skroner said...

i love that you only just updated this like ten minutes ago and i just got on and checked to see if you wrote anything.

and what you wrote basically describes (creepily enough) how i'm feeling.


why aren't you some kinda crazy english writer major person kinda deal?

hope things get better!
love youu.

Rachael said...

Anna, I'm sad that you used the phrase tears well up in your eyes. Is everything alright? Do I need to beat anyone up? I wish I lived closer so I could take you out for ice cream or something. Let me know what's up, ok?

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