december.

apparently the year is almost over. who knew?

i would say that it seems like just yesterday i was ringing in the new year in downtown columbus with some good friends, but really...it seems like it was a terribly long time ago. and it was. funny how things can change so much in a year.

not even just a year. as evidenced by my life (and the ridiculousness throughout), i have seen different aspects of it take a turn for better or worse within a matter of weeks...days...hours...minutes, even. life is constantly changing all around and for the most part, there is nothing you can do about it. so you embrace it...you take pictures, write down stories and try to remember the things that made you happy for a time before you can't anymore.

i have a terrible memory. there are things i swore i would never forget...and yet, i have. not necessarily on purpose, but perhaps not accidentally either. there aren't many constants in this life, so you just have to cling to the things you have and be willing to let go of whatever you can live without.

sometimes i wonder how my life would have been different if i hadn't made some major decisions last year. i wouldn't be a broadcast journalism major. i wouldn't still be in provo. i would be living in total bliss (ignorance?) somewhere, doing something else and everything would be...not quite right. i'm definitely a lucky girl.

i wonder what the new year will bring. it's still a few weeks away, but i'm excited for the potential of new things to come. i don't have many set plans after april, so it will be interesting to see how everything pans out. it makes me nervous but also excited. i can do whatever i want. it sounds simultaneously awesome and scary.

but for now...two papers to finish for spanish. grumble, grumble.