"as if you could kill time without injuring eternity."

-henry david thoreau

time keeps on going. i used to wish it would stop for sometimes. for whatever reason, things would be going so well that i would want to make time wait for me to enjoy it before continuing on to whatever mess was bound to happen afterward. that seems so juvenile and stupid. no one can make time stop. and even if you could, wouldn't that totally ruin everything?

the best part of time is that it keeps going even when you're not there. people in egypt and australia are going about life and doing their thing regardless of what i am doing here. i am essentially inconsequential in their minds. and that could be sad...but it's really not. the weird thing happens when you lead a double life like i do -- half in one place and half in another. and when you're somewhere, there you are. and when you're not, it's like you never were there at all. or at least it seems that way sometimes. it's one of those two-sided things that is awesome and terrible at the same time.

i used to hate my double life. it's hard. and yet...it's not stopping anytime soon. i'm not graduating in april and i'll be in provo at least another year.

BECAUSE I GOT ACCEPTED TO THE BROADCAST JOURNALISM MAJOR!!!!

i have never been so happy in my entire life. finally, things are starting to seem like they are going the way they should. finally, things are starting to fit. finally, i am okay. at least for the most part.

finally.

and you know what the best part is? no regrets.